Wednesday, April 17, 2019 — United by Sorrow

I write these words as I try to process my feelings toward the tragic, gut-wrenching burning of Notre Dame in Paris. So if I say anything that isn’t with full sensitivity, I ask your humble forgiveness as I work through some complex emotions.

Today’s Gospel selection continues the inevitable march toward the betrayal and execution of Christ, and which — as we all know — we will commemorate this Friday. Yet for me, the daily selections from Sacred Scripture always combine oddly with the Sunday Mass schedule, resulting in a melange of mixed emotions. This past Sunday — Palm Sunday — we celebrated the triumphant coming of Jesus to Jerusalem . . . but the Gospel selection that Sunday also detailed his crucifixion. Then — for today’s Gospel — he is not dead . . . not yet. The pieces are merely falling together for him to be betrayed for 30 pieces of silver.

So, on Sunday, Christ was killed. Today he is alive but destined to be betrayed. Friday he shall be killed again. Saturday we mourn his passing, but the Vigil Mass — started as the calendar does not yet say Sunday — tells the full story of his glorious resurrection.

How should I feel today? How do I prepare myself for Christ? Do I mourn his passing, as we did on Sunday? Rejoice in the fact that he is not yet dead, as in today’s readings? Look forward to his inevitable triumph over death?

Many of these same thoughts occur as I keep refreshing my browser for the latest news on the Notre Dame fire. Do I feel sad at the destruction? Hopeful at the outpouring of support? Do I feel relief over the artwork and relics that were saved? Do I pore over the past, taking comfort in the fact that nearly every millimeter of that historic structure has been preserved photographically and digitally to the best of our abilities? Do I feel hopeful and anticipatory, knowing that it will almost certainly be rebuilt? Do I find sorrow in knowing that re-creations are not the same as the real thing?

As much as we make our Faith friendly and welcoming to children, it is — at the end of the day — an “adult” religion. The questions it conjures, the feelings it forces us to follow, the mix of emotions it makes in our hearts . . . none of these are easy to navigate, especially during Holy Week. I live in hope at the promise of life eternal, as I navigate my fears at my own inadequacies in the eyes of the Lord. I feel joy at the coming resurrection as I also feel shame in the selfishness lurking in all human hearts that would eagerly seek to crucify him again.

As saddened as I am at the spire’s fall, I take a small bit of comfort at the outpouring of sorrow that has come from all corners of the Earth . . . including many who would consider themselves nonbelievers. Millennia ago, a crowd of human hearts couldn’t recognize the divine as He stood naked and suffering in front of them. Today, those same human hearts can feel that aching, that sense of loss, the feeling of injustice at an act so senseless. That nagging they feel — even if their secular hearts can’t give it voice — may be echoed in our Lord’s own words: “My God, my God, why have you forsaken me?” (Mark 15:34) In today’s divided world, that union of suffering . . . that sorrow spanning the secular and the sacred . . . there is some hope in that.

In the same way that Christ turned a humiliating death into a glorious triumph over sin, let us turn our own emotions to bettering our selves and our world, as we work to bring the Kingdom to Earth. Recognize that Holy Week is complex, and that if you have different and seemingly contradictory emotions, that’s okay. Pray. Walk with the Lord. Perhaps partake of the Stations of the Cross.

And if a colleague, friend, or family member expresses sorrow at Notre Dame, take it with the spirit of unity and humility that it engenders . . . especially if they are normally agnostic or even antagonistic toward the Faith. Christ united the world through his death, and — in so doing — overcame death itself. In our own human way, we can do our small part to bring about healing to a broken world, through humility and compassion.

Today’s readings: Is 50:4-9A; Ps 69:8-10,21-22,31, and 33-34; Mt 26:14-25

About the Author

Despite being a professional writer and editor for over 15 years, Steven Marsh is more-or-less winging it when it comes to writing about matters of faith. Steven entered the church in 2005, and since then he's been involved with various ministries, including Pre-Cana marriage prep for engaged couples, religious education for kindergarteners, and Stephen Ministry's one-on-one caregiving. Steven lives in Indiana with his wife and son. Despite having read the entirety of the Bible and the Catechism of the Catholic Church, he's still surprised at elements he rediscovers or reflects upon in new ways. The more Steven learns about the faith, the less he feels he knows; he's keen to emphasize that any mistakes are his own.

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  1. Yes a bit of a mixed up week…emotions running high…very high. Our souls hurt for the events that surround Jesus and his betrayal. They hurt for the Church and the fire at Notre Dame. Personally I feel gutted and distraught. There is something in my soul that is deeply violated by what has happened both with Jesus and Notre Dame. The unification that fellow christians and mourners bring revives me. We will overcome. Thank you Steven

  2. Steven you described exactly the emotions many of us are experiencing so far this week. The burning of the Notre Dame somehow seemed prophetic, even tragic. It’s a symbol of Christendom, as secularism and widespread neglect and abandonment has been happening all over the Western world. For awhile, the iconic symbol of Christianity was burning, perhaps due to carelessness, neglect, or simply accidental. Still the timing of it is prophetic in nature. Thank you for your reflection.

  3. Thank you for your reflection, it has gotten me thinking. The burning of Notre Dame touches many of us deeply. That evening I was able to sit quietly during our Tenebrae service, in the dark, and meditate on our Lord’s death, burial and anticipation of His resurrection. Between the readings, extinguishing of candles and silent Our Fathers, what I kept hearing in my heart was “that building is not My Church, those people are My Church. ” We love beautiful things. We have attachments to things. When there is a disaster we grab the things we find most meaningful such as family photos. We are attached to so many “things”. As I reflected further, I remembered earlier in the month three churches were burned to the ground in the South. Burned because of hate. They were not Catholic churches, they were not iconic cathedrals. They were Christian places of worship, nonetheless and I grieved for them as well. These churches meant a lot to those who attended them. Fire, water, and the hope for resurrection are all part of our Easter tradition. We use candles to symbolize Jesus the light. We use water to remind us of our baptism and the washing away of our sins. Easter gives us hope, and perhaps this is a turning point that the Catholic Church will be resurrected to what the first Christians saw in it, not a building but a community of faith.

  4. Tragedy stirs up all kinds of emotions – shock, disbelief, horror, questioning WHY? On Saturday, I attended a funeral mass for my 56 year old niece. She died of a massive heart attack. Her 19-year-old daughter found her on the bathroom floor. She and her 23 year old brother are still in a state of shock. My sister has been going through one of the stages of grief – ANGER. Why did this happen?

    Then I turned on the tv to hear about Norte Dame fire – I felt numb.

    During this Holy Week, these are the same emotions that are stirred up every year at this time as we listen to the readings. Why did Judas feel compelled to betray Jesus? If Jesus knew what Judas was about to do, why didn’t he stop him. Scripture tells us it was to fulfill what was foretold. If Jesus didn’t die, there would be no Easter resurrection, no Christianatity, no salvation. How often have we heard that some good comes from tragedy. I pray that my niece’s death, will in time, help her children to cherish the incredible love she had for them, that that’s how she would want them to remember her. I pray that the Notre Dame fire, and the numerous tragedies occurring world-wide will continue to draw people together., that just like Jesus’ life and death was not in vain, that something miraculous will happen – a type of resurrection for humankind.

    May this Holy Week renew each of us. God bless

  5. Beautiful reflection, read it early this morning and again this evening. Lent is a time of ups and downs, struggle and sometimes failure, getting up and trying again. I imagine the Lenten days as ruffled water, which comes smooth, deep and peaceful on Holy Thursday. Three days of silence, mystery, waiting, and we can grieve with hope, knowing that Easter will dawn. God bless you and have a beautiful Easter.

  6. I have never seen Notre Dame Cathedral but have seen the faces of the poor, hungry, and enslaved. My hope is that Christians would find more compassion for their fellow man. Souls are the true temples of God!

  7. Thank you, Steven. I actually have not veen able to bring myself to look at footage of Notre Dame. I heard about it on the radio and couldn’t believe it. I can’t even picture what the church looks like, but I’m sure I would recognize it if I saw it. I won’t look, because it really bothers me. Why?

    I think the fact that the worshipping community there lost its church at the beginning of Holy Week is significant. I don’t know how. But it bothers me. I grieve for them.

    Perhaps this is meant to be a cleansing of the Church, especially amid the sexual abuse crisis. Out with the old and rebuild the church/Church.

    And yes, Holy Week is complicated. I want to make Resurrection Rolls (Google the recipe, I’ve never made them, but heard about them at a homily from a priest) with my family, but when? Good Friday when Jesus died and actually was buried? Holy Saturday? Easter Sunday when He rose again? But why focus on the burying of His body on Easter Sunday? Still undecided. But leaning toward Good Friday, with the hope of the Resurrection on the day of His death and burial.

    Here is the recipe we will try: https://www.yummyhealthyeasy.com/easter-resurrection-rolls/ Maybe there are better ones, buy I like the narrative that accompanies the preparation of the rolls.

    Have a blessed Easter Triduum, Steven!

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