Prayers in the Night

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It is 2:30 am.  You wake up and look at the clock.   As you turn over and hug your pillow, you hope, hope, hope that you go back to sleep.  But now your mind is going—just drifting at first, but then fixing on something—an emotion, a worry, a problem, a conversation of the day before.  Soon you realize you are not going back to sleep.  You groan with the awareness. What now?  Perhaps you are being invited by God to a time of deep intimacy with him.  Perhaps God is calling you to prayers in the night.

The Gospel today begins, “Jesus departed to the mountain to pray, and he spent the night in prayer to God.  When day came, he called his disciples to himself, and from them he chose….” 

The gospels are sprinkled with one line notations that Jesus prayed in the night.  He did it when he had a big decision, as in our reading today.  In this instance Jesus spent the night in prayer before he chose the “inner twelve” disciples who were to walk with him throughout his three years of public ministry and eventually become his apostles.

Jesus also prayed in the night after he fed the 5000.  The Jewish leaders and Judas came to arrest him in the night in Gethsemane where he had gone to pray the night before he died.  Jesus went away to pray on a regular basis.  Many times it probably had to be in the night, because that was the only free time he had.  At other times, perhaps he simply knew the quiet and darkness of the night was a good time to be intimately alone with his Father.

St. Dominic, founder of the Friars Preachers and evangelist extraordinaire of the 13th century, prayed in the night every night.  From the time he began to walk the roads of Languedoc to preach against the Albigensian heresy until the end of his life, every evening he spent at least part of the night in prayer.  He found a church when he could, and went in to pray before the reposed Blessed Sacrament, sleeping only when his prayers allowed for it.  If he was not near a church, he would withdraw from any companions to pray in the outdoors.  Much of his success during the day he and his followers attributed to his habit of prayers in the night.

Most of my life I have prayed in early morning while everyone else remained asleep. Until the last few years, I did not pray in the night.  I could be wakened in the night by hungry infant, snoring husband, or returning teen and be back asleep as soon as I closed my eyes again.  Not so these days.  Whether it is aging bladder, arthritic joints, or too much stress at work, I am awakened in the night far more often than I would like.

I have gradually come to appreciate these times because they give me prayers in the night.  For me, morning prayer is focused, substantially mental, with at least some eye on the day ahead.  Evening prayer is often dominated by the burdens of the day. In the night I have discovered that God has more opportunity to challenge me, to let me take my thoughts and emotions where they go, then help me see that I am backing myself into a corner, onto a cliff, or cutting through some new path.  My observation is that my prayers in the night bring my will into alignment with God’s will.

In prayers in the night, I can enter into a holy darkness.  Sometimes that darkness is holy because it enables me to see and face temptations. I have learned that my will and quoting Scripture can make temptations go away.  I have come to face that sometimes I am not ready for them to go away.  In the holy darkness God and I wrestle.

Last Friday night was one of those times.  I woke up at 2:30 am and realized before too long that God had invited me into holy darkness.  For more than four hours God and I wrestled.  It was not pleasant prayer.  It was a time of self-questioning.  It was what I call “Psalmist prayer”—prayer in which I cried out to God anything and everything that was on my mind and in my heart.  It wasn’t pretty prayer or holy prayer—but it was wonderfully intimate prayer.  I talked.  God listened.  As God listened to me, I also truly listened to myself.  I faced myself.

Then God began to speak.  I began to listen to him.  No, there were no clear words from God—nothing Teresa of Avila would write about.  God spoke first through a very painful conversation with a family member Saturday morning.  That conversation helped me see issues more clearly. Then God spoke through Father’s homily at Saturday evening mass.  Father named what I had been skirting around through those long hours of wrestling.  By communion I could speak back to God with my will. I could give my heart in a deeper, fuller way than I had before.

As I faced the difficulty of that and shared it with a friend, my friend knew just the right words to comfort me without relieving me of awareness of what I need to do now.  God sent that friend to me.  Then, Saturday night, in the night, my soul must have prayed more, prayed without thought, because I slept well, but I woke up Sunday morning with clarity of what I must do and how I should do it.

Finally, now on Monday morning, an unexpected conversation with another family member confirmed the wisdom of the path God gave me in my prayers the night.  With that confirmation came both peace and joy. Today I am beginning to do it.

Others who pray regularly in the night tell me this is not the least bit unusual for those who pray seriously.  They talk about awaking in the night with an impulse to pray for a particular person or intention.  They talk about habits of waking up at 3 am to pray chaplets of Divine Mercy.  They talk about turning any of their fears in the night into prayers in the night.

The psalm response today is, “The Lord takes delight in his people.”  I think the Lord takes delight in his people who pray in the night.

So, the next time you wake up in the middle of the night, you might try prayer instead of worry, prayer instead of mindless midnight TV, prayer instead of tossing and grumbling. Be a psalmist:  pour out your heart and mind to God.  Wait for him to speak through movements of your mind, emotions, or will.  Watch for him to open or close something in a way that gives you light, strength, joy, love, or peace.  He may speak directly to you.  He may speak through others.  Either way, it can be an invitation to intimacy with him.

Closing Prayer today comes from Night Prayer of the Liturgy of the Hours:

“Protect us, Lord, as we stay awake; watch over us as we sleep, that awake, we may keep watch with Christ, and asleep, rest in his peace.”

Link to today’s readings:  I Corinthians 6:1-11; from Psalm 149; Luke 6:12-19

 

About the Author

Mary Ortwein lives in Frankfort, Kentucky in the US. A convert to Catholicism in 1969, Mary had a deeper conversion in 2010. She earned a theology degree from St. Meinrad School of Theology in 2015. Now an Oblate of St. Meinrad, Mary takes as her model Anna, who met the Holy Family in the temple at the Presentation. Like Anna, Mary spends time praying, working in church settings, and enjoying the people she meets. Though formally retired, Mary continues to work part-time as a marriage and family therapist and therapy supervisor. A grandmother and widow, she divides the rest of her time between facilitating small faith-sharing groups, writing, and being with family and friends. Earlier in her life, Mary worked avidly in the pro-life movement. In recent years that has taken the form of Eucharistic ministry to Carebound and educating about end-of-life matters. Now, as Respect for Human Life returns to center stage, she seeks to find ways to communicate God's love and Lordship for all--from the moment of conception through the moment we appear before Jesus when life ends.

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13 Comments

  1. How beautifully put Mary. I often wake in the night around 3am. A friend of mine told me Jesus needs your prayers. I have now come to know this is my time to pray and listen to God. God Bless you Mary.

  2. Now i know what to do whenever i wake up at those early times in the morning.
    Thank you, Mary, for opening my eyes to this. It is indeed going to be my quiet time with the Lord.

  3. Mary Ortwein, Hello to you and im glad i have time to come to your reflection today so now I know what will I do when I woke up in that time…

    More blessings to your life…

  4. Oh, Mary, that was a beautiful reflection. Thank you! I am so inspired by it. I want to pray more. I want to pray at night. I want to listen to God more. I want to align my will with His will all day long. Again, thank you for letting the Spirit guide you and reach all of us. Have a blessed day!

  5. Thanks for the awesome reflection . . I could very much relate to it. God bless and may you continue to inspire a lot of us who continues to search for a deeper and more meaningful relationship with the Lord.

  6. Thanks for the awesome reflection, Mary . . . I could very much relate to it! May you continue to inspire a lot of us who continues to search for a deeper and more meaningful relationship with the Lord. God bless!

  7. Mary, this reflection was beautifully written. The past 4-5 years I am regularly awake anywhere between 2 and 4 am and have difficulty falling back asleep. At first, I would get frustrated and upset making it impossible to fall asleep. Gradually I began to see it as God’s way to get me alone with Him – in the quiet – to read scripture/reflections and pour out my heart to Him. This time with our Lord has brought me to a deeper relationship and a complete dependence on Him. There are times when I wish I could sleep through the night every night – but God always knows when I have reached all that I can handle and gives me the rest required to have clear thoughts and energy needed to go on. Thank you for sharing your faith and talent with all of us!

  8. I woke up yesterday at 4:40 am and went to this website as I do first thing in the morning. After reading your piece, I realized it was a great opportunity to start my day in prayer. Thank you and all the writers on this site for your thoughtful writing and bringing the gospels alive for so many people.

  9. Rarely do I sleep without waking at least once, most often several times during the night. What a beautiful and purposeful thought to spend this time in prayer with God. Thank you for this inspiring reflection.

  10. Thanks Mary for sharing this beautiful reflexion on the experience of praying at night! I always felt that waking up a night is Jesus’ invitation to join Him at Gethsemani. I personally enjoy listening to christian chants, gregorian or any of the orthodox churches, helps me to drift in & out of sleep in a peaceful manner. Thank You Jesus for those quiet moments, resting in our mother’s arms

  11. I needed to hear that I am not alone in the night, that I am in communion with many sisters and brothers in Christ called to do his will. I am 64 yrs young and have experienced intimacy with Christ in my sleeping hours for many years. I went through times of asking GOD for a break from wakefulness, until I felt so alone and begged him, on my knees, to wake me up again! That was so painful, I will remember never to ask for that again! Thank you for sharing and for doing His will! My prayer ” Wake me Lord! If I am too busy during the day for you, keep me close to your chest, that I will know your will and be your faithful servant”

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