It has been a confusing 2 weeks … with my recovering status and the entire state plunging into darkness for 2 days , owing to a cyclone hitting the western coastline of my country and now one is moving towards the eastern coast. The power outage and the lack of internet connection let me unable to post a reflection onto the site last Wednesday. I apologise for the same.
For me, I need to constantly have a plan, my work my life and even as I wake up I will scribble a ” to do ” list and tick off the ones I finished. Unfortunately being a perfectionist, I almost never complete my to do list and eventually re write another one. The act of making the list makes me worry less and focus more however it doesnt make me sure of the fact that I will complete them all. I do try. So when I read,
He plumbs the depths and penetrates the heart;
their innermost being he understands.
The Most High possesses all knowledge,
and sees from of old the things that are to come:
He makes known the past and the future,
and reveals the deepest secrets.
No understanding does he lack;
no single thing escapes him.
Perennial is his almighty wisdom
I am glad that I have a God who knows everything and all I need ” to do ” is to surrender my day to Him. Seems easy? Not really. Letting go of my control of the day and asking God for help when most needed seems very hard. But in the Gospel today, Bartimaeus, a blind man, the son of Timaeus, surrendered his trust in Jesus and when Jesus asked the question , “What do you want me to do for you?” … he asked and was healed and could finally see!!
Today as we go in personal prayer, ,let us imagine Jesus, looking in our eyes and asking us , ” what do you want me to do for you?”… and surrender our “to do” list at his feet and work our way through the day with complete surrender in His power. Let us start trusting Him with our dreams and lives and watch Him bless us with all we need.
PRAYER:
Dear Lord, today I want you to bless my goals for the day at work or home. Bless me with faith in your unending prowess and help me let go of myself into your presence as I seek my daily routine. Forgive me Lord for the times I doubt your desires for me and help me accept every trial and conflict that comes along the way.
AMEN.
