But I tell you, you will not see me until the time comes when you say,
Blessed is he who comes in the name of the Lord.”
I just put down a book by Fredrick Backman titled ” A man called Ove” with tears in my eyes. A lot of the 39 chapters made me realise how we feel when someone takes away what we love and how much we wish for a routine or semblance of one! Much like the Pharisees, while being the centre of attention and the only ones who studied so hard over years to reach that stature, suddenly a carpenters son comes by and disrupts the entire situation by claiming to be Gods Son! pretty annoying right?!
I had that issue at work place, where I was so confident about everything and someone new just strolled in and stole my thunder with their fancy degree – call it jealousy or plain attention seeking behaviour! I ensured I too studied for same degree and would not feel lesser ! Or I couldve just made a false claim and pushed the newbie back in place!!
It is very difficult for us to adapt to change and the pharisees were no different! They didnt care about Son of God or any man , they just wanted their position in the world!I agree with it – If I work hard for something I do expect my reward and undivided attention ! Unfortunately, alot of our identity we tend to attach with the work we do or goals we set and forget the actual purpose behind it all!
While I am studying for higher qualifications and tougher exams, I forget my primary purpose is to be a good doctor and decent human- which often seems like an obstacle in the way of my goal but I do justify myself at most times and inside deep down my conscience squirms with guilt!
Today when I read , I empathize with the Pharisees and wonder if I am turning into them with my actions! I want to be a decent human but it costs me a lot of my time and patience and at times even affects my work! I realise I need to realign my focus and get to the simple fact of being kind and generous! It is hard and I cannot preach when I barely practise it myself …
but we can all try!
PRAYER:
Thank you Lord for giving us values of being better humans and christians
help me to be less focus on my earthly wishes and be a better person despite knowing how its going to pan out in the long run!
GUide me !
AMEN
