Thursday 24th August 2023

 “How do you know me?”

I often sit and think about the sins I have committed, some times of omission, many of commission.. I keep thinking how does God know exactly where to find me … sending the people or words I know and I should hear!

Past few days, I have been feeling a sense of doubt in myself – imposter syndrome ! At work and at home! I feel I am not good enough and unworthy and then I put on a façade like faking it till I am making it!

I am unsure why this feeling has crept unto me – I barely got back onto my feet after getting adjusted with new place! Seniors saying stuff to me, co workers gossip, chaos at work and language issues- I was barely getting along the flow!

And then one day someone passed a remark and my entire fake confidence came crashing down! As I sat in prayer asking God what I wanted – I asked God , how does he know me?How does He know who I am and what I want?

I think He does!

He knows all of us.

Let us know the Lord like He knows us!

AMEN!

About the Author

Hello! I’m Dr Analise Maria D’ Mello, (MBBS, MS obgyn, DNB) from the beautiful state of Goa in India. I was born and raised in a Roman Catholic family, learning my prayers, catechism and Catholic values from my parents and grandmothers. I am currently practicing as an obstetrician and gynecologist for 3 years since my residency. I often speak on anti-abortion to college students and married couples, and counsel distressed pregnant women with appropriate medical advice. I am part of the St Luke's Medical Guild of Catholic Doctors in my state providing services in prisons, and Lenten and advent retreats for medical professionals and their families.

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11 Comments

  1. Thank you for your beautiful honesty, Analise! I can do relate to the fragile self-confidence being deflated so quickly. Like you, I hope to turn to God more regularly

  2. Thanks Analise. Life is tough and we can all have bad days. The Lord said “come to me, all you who are weary and burdened and I will give you rest.”

  3. Dr Analise Thank you for your rare honesty! You have bore your soul! And you are so correct in where you took yourself….to the Lord! What another says or thinks of us doesn’t matter if we are answering the Lords call, doing His will, listening to His Voice, reading and following His Word. Is it easy NO! Is it worth it YES! You do know the Lord, He sustains you and you run to Him and He embraces you and then you go back out there and touch and heal others with His Hands!!

    God bless us all and may we all Come to You when we are weary and we will find rest.

  4. Hi Dr. Analise. Thank you for the gift of articulating what you are feeling. Not an easy thing to do. I struggle with imposter syndrome, self doubt, and fragile confidence on a daily basis. I speak to our Lord about it and I have the same daily conversation with Him! I heard a great quote from someone on Catholic XM radio: Just Do Today.
    So simple and true. Asking the Lord to help me just do today.
    The Lord only provided daily mana to the people of Israel and told them not to get extra for tomorrow (only on Sabbath). He will help us with our daily mana.

  5. Dear Analise. Nobody but God is perfect. He doesn’t expect us to be perfect. He wants us to love him, and I believe that you love Him. He loves you and He loves us all.

  6. Analyse, even in the midst of your doubt and worries, your faith for God shines through.
    Cecelia, beautiful words of faith.

  7. I love how you open yourself up and then give good advice as to how to cope with everyday life. I’m trying to get use to getting older…it’s not for sissies!! GIGATT…look to the Lord!

  8. Analise, thank you for this very honest and thought provoking reflection. Most days I feel like the outward me doesn’t reflect the real inner me and then at times I’m ashamed of what the inner me is thinking and feeling. Turning to the Lord is the only way.

  9. Thank you Analise.Your frank honesty and expressions of self doubt ring so true for me too.Remembering that you’re not alone and that Christ is always there to offer solace and love is a great comfort.
    Great advice and thoughts from other readers.Lizzie,I love the thought of Just Do Today.That’s all we can hope and pray for.
    God’s blessings to you today Analise.

  10. Thank You for this reflection. I understand your feelings very well and stand in prayer with you, may we run to the father for all of our needs and not let pride stop us🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼

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