Why should I feel discouraged,
Why should the shadows come,
Why should my heart be lonely,
And long for heaven, heaven and home,
When, when Jesus is my portion,
My constant Friend is He;
Oh, oh-oh, his eye is on the sparrow,
And I know He watched, watched it over me.
I sing because I’m happy (happy)
I sing because I’m free (free free free)
For His eye, his eye is on the sparrow,
And I know, I know He watches over me.
As a child I was taught music at classes and my mother would make me sit in her lap and sing songs from a book.. I learnt words and tunes from the worlds best singer at home. I was a regular at the school choir and competitions and I loved the practise. I learnt lyrics and that I had a unique voice which would always need another to support.
Over the years as I focused on work and grew up I got more conscious about my voice, I stopped singing – even in the bathroom! Much like my faith, I began to adapt with everyone around me and pushed myself to be common.
This new church has the most amazing choir and for 1 hour of my sundays I turn into a singer and blast my tunes as no one else does sing english!
But I return to my old shy self after I step out. I know I have been extremely busy and missed church a couple of times – I was with patients and I know that is also my faith and vocation! I lost a very dear friends mother who battled metastatic breast cancer and finally breathed her last. I still remember sitting in the operation theatre and thinking of her.
The Song I shared are lyrics I heard while watching a series during dinner! And I realised I have stopped praying , I mumble a hail Mary at the stop light or lift at hospital! Life is way more busier but that never gives me excuse to miss God – his eyes are on me and I know!
But if you do not believe his writings,
how will you believe my words?”
Even Jesus knows our mind and knows very well that we have ulterior motives! This lent has been one of the challenging ones. I have not stuck to abstaining from anything, I would reward myself with it after slogging hours at hospital! My initial guilt was terrible and then I realised I was fasting in my own way but I need to focus on prayers!
So as lent is coming to an end let us focus on picking up where we left especially people like me! I just want to reconnect with God! I hope it happens soon!
PRAYER: To you oh Lord I surrender my unclean spirit this lent for new and renewed year ahead! Help me and guide me through this journey!Amen!
