In God I trust; I shall not fear.
As I watched my plans for the week go up in smokes as my entire family was struck by the pandemic and ill, I weirdly had neither symptoms nor any viral antigen in my body despite being in contact with everyone at home! I was shuttling between my mother at the hospital and tending to my father at home, whilst preparing for an exam this week.
While I felt unsettled and distressed, I kept trying to watch some random videos online or listen to music to just help me stop stressing about the same- nothing seemed to have helped !!! I finally joined my dad for a rosary and was super distracted through it. I realised my mind and heart has not settled and focussed on God!
Then I open my phone and plug my earphones and listen to the daily 1 minute podcast of Blessed is She. It was a story of a housewife and mom struggling to work for everyone and wanting validation for the same when the biggest act of service was her prayer to the Lord.
As the days get hectic and stressful, my reflex is to look out for a human to vent and seek comfort, while he awaits me to turn to him in prayer and submit my woes. It dawned on my that He chose me to stay negative so I can serve my family and help them recover faster. (they are all healing and home in good health)
This week I want to dedicate my time a little longer to prayer, maybe a minute after the podcast reflecting on what they say and pick a verse from the Bible to focus on. Seems ambitious but I need to start somewhere and find my foothold in this relationship with God especially when every day seems so unpredictable and gloomy! I need to trust the lord and not fear!
Maybe you could join me too!
( I do absolutely love reading every single comment on my reflections and they do make me emotional at times for there is so much love and warmth in every one. I wish we could spread the same to people we live with and meet IRL too. I keep you all in my prayers and hope I am in yours as I wander along my journey of faith)
PRAYER:
Dearest Lord, I thank you for health and guidance to my family and all the readers. I ask for you to help me grow in your trust and have faith in your plan every single day. Amen.
