A month into new year … I feel more anxious, more stressed and worst aspect I had not made enough effort to sit and pray!
Yes I can enumerate a lot of my doubts and issues but I felt it all calm down when I walked into Sunday mass and listened to the choir sing alleluia !
I am in a much better place mentally and physically when I write this reflection …
So they went off and preached repentance.
The Twelve drove out many demons,
and they anointed with oil many who were sick and cured them.
Todays readings are a bunch of instructions by King David and Jesus to do lists for the future, alot of them made by me too at start of the year but wuthin a month all fell apart and I was back to my old unhealthy routine – leading to a mini burnout ….
While I love Sundays cause it makes me feel like I have more time to waste and less guilty for just sitting by myself with a cup of chai especially in the evenings!
I have been trying to listen to the word of God as I drive to work but I feel more hurried and anxious and realised I am not focussing on any aspect of it! Yes my ministry of being an oncologist is important and I can see how happy patients get when they see me after surgeries and smile despite all their woes… often I wonder if I even have half the worries they have!
Lord gave us simple clear instruction which we unfortunately dont follow and have alot of chaos around us unnecessarily.. so lets focus on following this pre set rules of resolutions we have in the scripture!!!
PRAYER
guide me Lord to navigate my day as per your will. For you alone are my Lord and Almighty!
Amen
