Thursday 18th February – its the climb……………………..

And yet another lenten season begins! As a child I would never like these 40 days , partly cause it was in the midst of my final exams at school every year and the sveltering Indian heat of summer… and mom would not cook any meat ( I am a pure non vegetarian!)… Good friday was a long boring service and finally easter was on a sunday … means no extra holiday off school!!! — I found every reason I could to detest this season..

Up until a few years ago, when I was a regular palm Sunday weekend retreat with my family at the center of Fr Agnelo ( my dads favorite saint) and it always made my Lenten season more meaningful…. and while I started to abstain more fervently, I grew superstitous about how my fasting and abstinence affected my year to come … and attributed any untoward incident of major effect to the fact that I wasnt follwing my lenten schedule well!!!!!

Although I want to bust the myth and focus more on building my relationship with God and improve my faith during lent … every year that doubt crops up in my mind.. and my earthly meaning of the daily rosary or fasting on fridays ends up being more of a willpower task then actually uplifting my meal or my prayers to Him!! I tend to focus on the profit on earth that I will obtain and the quick results I will get to see..

What profit is there for one to gain the whole world
yet lose or forfeit himself?

I am losing myself every lenten season in trying to be perfect and not make an error or sin or not skip that one rosary or prayer and end up dozing through some cause I want my target to be achieved or completed! NOPE! This lenten season, I want to give myself time to pray, time to have some indepth discussions about my life so far and the future with the Lord, asking for the Holy spirit to guide me in my decisions and responses whether it is to avoid the gossip I get surrounded by or my crankiness thanks to hunger ! I want to let this lent be about just HIM and me and our imperfect relationship where I keep straying away from the ideal responses to situations but pick myself up and put a valiant effort to stick to the Law of the Lord.

I wish all of you a meaningful Lenten season, where you find the purpose of your faith in Christ and ensure you do not be bogged down by the missed fast or accidental consumption of meat on a Friday! But stand up and pick up your heavy cross and take it along the Calvary to be witnesses to this wonderful season and miracle of resurection!!!

PRAYER: Dearest Lord, I ask you to have patience with this imperfect child of yours. Have some mercy and empathy with my slow and repetitive mistakes, teach and guide me to learn about my faith and take my cross towards the hilltop and learn how much I want to be like you!

AMEN

About the Author

Hello! I’m Dr Analise Maria D’ Mello, (MBBS, MS obgyn, DNB) from the beautiful state of Goa in India. I was born and raised in a Roman Catholic family, learning my prayers, catechism and Catholic values from my parents and grandmothers. I am currently practicing as an obstetrician and gynecologist for 3 years since my residency. I often speak on anti-abortion to college students and married couples, and counsel distressed pregnant women with appropriate medical advice. I am part of the St Luke's Medical Guild of Catholic Doctors in my state providing services in prisons, and Lenten and advent retreats for medical professionals and their families.

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10 Comments

  1. Lovely, Analise! I can relate to losing focus of the purpose of Lent and instead using it as a test of willpower and self-control. Thank you for your reminder

  2. Thank you Analise. The honesty reveals our human condition and the struggles we have on the journey of life. Your prayer is a beautiful summary. May God give you strength through this Lenten season.

  3. I too struggle with giving my Lenten sacrifices to the Lord and depending on Him vs depending on my own willpower. Thank you Analise.

  4. Thank you Analise . For confirming my Lenten practice this year . To being still with the Lord . To know Him and His will .

  5. What a beautiful prayer! It fits me perfectly…my repetitive mistakes. Thank you for putting it so clearly. Lord, teach me to carry my crosses with more patience, humility and love for You, Amen.

  6. …And Jesus fell under the weight of His cross, three times! Every time He got back up and made His way to that place His father willed Him to be. Falling isn’t the problem, (would that I only fell 3 times!) Its the getting back up and going where the Spirit leads. Going with joy and abandon and trust in the Father. Embracing that next fall, because He’ll be right there to help me up.

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