“Get behind me, Satan.
You are thinking not as God does, but as human beings do.”
As an older aged resident doctor who has more experience than others working on my own. I am often asked about how I am coping back to doing jobs of an intern level. To be honest I am not – I am going with the flow. By the day begins with e rounding ,I am tearing through the work list and studying and dozing off at class by evenings!
My inner satan wakes inside and screams – why do I have to skip lunch ? Why do I have to struggle so much? I do! My work as a doctor calls me-oncology is tough and everytime I want to give up – I see my warrior like patients at ages of 70 + fight their battle and move on! I scream at satan like Peter and push him off!
We humans tend to believe everything we say is superior! However, we have to realise that just the way Jesus suffered for absolutely no fault of His and was persecuted, so do I as a human need to look at Him and learn virtue of patience and humility!
As I have always been a person to call a spade a spade – I dont get along well as a junior with most humans! I tend to say something that isnt pleasant to a superior to a senior but is true! I come across as blunt and rude and always have!
This Lent I am going to work on my humility and human behaviour to adapt as much of being Jesus and stop asking myself questions about why, what and why me… but focus on being a better human with humility and patince as virtues!
What is your lenten sacrifice?