Thursday April 30th, Have faith! Believe….

As a 9 year old child, every Sunday meant church and violin class . I wasn’t the biggest fan of it but as a good child (and after maternal coercion) I would reluctantly climb onto my dads 2 wheeler and hug my violin case hoping this day would end sooner, while we rode to the class.

One such Sunday after a rainy weekend , a little late for class, my dad decided to cut traffic by going through a puddle of water . BAD DECISION! That puddle was actually a deep pit filled with rain water, smartly camouflaged and as expected we had a pretty decent fall. While my dad and my brother managed to jump off the other way in time .. poor little me fell straight into the pool of muddy water deep into the pit.

Next thing I remember coming up for air, gasping , holding onto my violin case.. struggling to see my dad while he was trying his best to get me out. It took (what felt like an eternity) to get me out from there and home.. we hitched a ride home from this wonderful couple to a shocked mother at home. (Best part — no class!! )

That incident has always stuck with me and to this day I am terrified of water or even a shower for more than 5 seconds. I attempted swimming classes almost 3 times since and it was horrible. I just couldn’t get myself to let go of the trainers hand. It was a nightmare!(and still is). But I still am going to try again .. and keep trying till I get over my fear! I want to swim…..

Our relationship with Jesus is similar to my story, we do believe in him but we hesitate to trust him especially with those areas in our lives which we do not want God to poke his nose into.. sexual sin, procrastination at work, family relationships, romantic relationships, marital discords or the total hopelessness we experience when during lockdown! It is HARD. I know. I can see it everyday with every expectant mother who is terrified about her unborn child, her safety, their families who are terrified! The doctors, nurses and hospital staff who wake up and go to work praying that the PPE (personal protective equipment ) will be available for their shift and hope they do not contaminate themselves or their families.

“I am the bread of life;
whoever comes to me will never hunger,
and whoever believes in me will never thirst.
But I told you that although you have seen me,
you do not believe.”

Let us believe in him not through just online mass, rosaries and prayers but by emptying our hearts and fears into his arms. Let us start one day at a time. Get over the fear!

Prayer: Dear Lord Jesus, I praise you for your Holy name. I worship your Holiness and I glorify you. Help me Lord to open my heart to you and set forth every secret pain, angst and distrust I have every day and put my faith in your will. Help me Lord to grow with you daily in this lockdown.

Amen

About the Author

Hello! I’m Dr Analise Maria D’ Mello, (MBBS, MS obgyn, DNB) from the beautiful state of Goa in India. I was born and raised in a Roman Catholic family, learning my prayers, catechism and Catholic values from my parents and grandmothers. I am currently practicing as an obstetrician and gynecologist for 3 years since my residency. I often speak on anti-abortion to college students and married couples, and counsel distressed pregnant women with appropriate medical advice. I am part of the St Luke's Medical Guild of Catholic Doctors in my state providing services in prisons, and Lenten and advent retreats for medical professionals and their families.

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15 Comments

  1. Thank you for your good work and reflections. We all need a little encouragement in these times. Many blessings Dr A.

  2. Thank you for your encouraging reflection. We all have fears and pain we’re dealing with. Some more painful than others. Jesus wants to help us with all of them, if only we tell Him what they are and ask Him to. God bless you.

  3. Wanting to learn to swim is the perfect analogy of much of my relationship with Jesus. I go to the lessons but really am scared to let go.
    Btw, I hope you do learn to swim. It’s such a great feeling to let go (which I guess I need to remember in my relationship with Him) . Thank you Analise

  4. Thank you for telling us we need to go beyond prayers, rosaries and online Masses—it wasn’t enough for me—Jesus wants us to fall into his arms with our fears and fatigue, and his mother Mary is lifting us up onto his lap.

  5. Thank you Doc, yes, I guess I never thought of not wanting God to poke His nose in certain aspects of my life.
    Let us know when you take the plunge.
    I love the freedom of water. Hope you learn to enjoy it instead of fear it.

  6. Thank you, Analise. I am also of Goan origin and spent the first 21 years of my life in Bombay. I have lived in the Pacific Northwest of the US for the last 52 years. I appreciate your well written reflections and encourage you to continue to edify us in this regard. I am also grateful for you being a doctor and being unapologetically Catholic. We need more people like you. God bless you.

  7. Thank you for the inspiring reflection.
    May we all by His grace overcome especially our secrete fears.
    I learnt to swim in my old age when taking my children for swimming, I also watched them exhibit and grew out of the fear described by Analise. While waiting for them to go through lessons, they would be splashing water at me but after few months of practice, they perfected the art. That challenged me to learn & Voila!!

  8. Thank you! This was very well written. I haven’t come to this site in awhile, and I really feel as though the Holy Spirit led me here today. Your words spoke to me and brought me closer to God. Thank you so much. Very well written. (I didn’t like the violin either.) 🙂

  9. Bless you and your medical ministry. Good luck on learning to swim. You will enjoy the water.

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